A Song

Sorry I haven't updated this in a while. I have been busy will college and other things in my life. Everything is going pretty well for me. Not too much drama that I can't handle. Other than the fact that I have a pretty big crush on a friend of mine but I don't know how to tell her. But anyway the other day I was up pretty late talking to a friend of mine. We were discussing the past and I became pretty upset. I wanted to yell but it was pretty late. So I did the next best thing...I wrote a rap song!! Now I have never written a song before nor to I claim to me musically talented in any way shape or form. But I gave it my best shot and it made me feel better. So here it is and let me know what you think.

C

Why can't I be this person that she adores? Why can't I be the person she wants to be with behind closed doors? I just keep failing no matter what I do. Why must I be someone else to have you? Cause Yo I'm the D thats all I can be. I wish I could be more than that, more than him, more than me. I wish I could be the one that you adore C. I fuckin' can't stand it, the way they look at you. They will never feel the way that I do. But you don't understand cause you don't wanna see, that I am better than they'll ever fuckin' be. But I still have these thoughts runnin' through my head, If I am so much better than why are they in your bed? What do I have to do to make you see that the D is all you ever need? What do I have to do to make you see that I am the one you need, to see past all of those other mothafucka's greed! They want you for your body, yet I prefer your soul, everything you have to offer, not just a hole. But I will never be this person that you desire....never be the one to ignite your fire.

Thanks for reading,

Big K-Finks

Hello and Question 1.

Hello All, for all who care, My Name is KitchenFinks and I am just a fun loving person in real life. But I'm sure most of you who are reading this could really care less who I am in real life. I am just here to make some friends on the internet. Give some advise to those who ask and maybe ask some questions that I feed need answering from time to time without the bias that you may know me in real life. My first question will be about the thing that everyone is an expert on yet doesn't really understand..Love.

I recently was in a relationship for a couple of weeks and I tried to like the person I was with but I just couldn't so I decided to break up with that person. I know this person was very hurt when I did this and It really broke my heart....to the point where I even wanted to cry even though I suppose I was the one doing the hurting. Why couldn't I like this person even though I tried so hard and wanted to like them. Has anyone else been in a sitution like my own. I just need a little advise on this one. So thank you to anyone who will respond.


Big K-Finks